it only takes one thought for peter to break.( isn’t everything a lie? ) in his experience, there are no HAPPY endings. no compromises to better humanity. diplomacy cannot save the earth and neither can words fueled by spirit nor oaths made by mortals. all he wants is to save the place his mother called HOME. “so i guess i better stop makin’ promises then and start kickin’ some more ass.” / @saviorheart
“thank you! i try.” peter makes no attempt to consider the intention behind rider’s words, immediately deciding they added up to a COMPLIMENT. at times like this, he can really use the ego boost anyway. “do you also think i’m prettier than thor? because if you don’t, you’re wrong. i’m way prettier — and i’m NOT FAT!” / @novasparked
two days. peter quill had been given the gift of his BLOOD FATHER for two days. now, he no longer has that. no longer has yondu. aside from the guardians, he truly is ALONE in the universe. anyone with a heart would cry in his position, though he still tenses the moment he first becomes aware of el’s presence. he sharply inhales before wiping at his eyes and turning to her, forcing a smile as if nothing’s wrong. “hey, el. what’s up? everything okay?” / @atlsburnt
peter approaches her with a serious expression. “tell me something.” the demand comes softly, voice gentle in spite of his facade. “what, exactly, is a pretty woman like you doing on a DIRTY planet like this?” / @claraosiwald
“I don’t think I’ll ever be READY, Peter. But we have to. I have to.” She admits in a hushed tone, eyes unfocused–though it was clear she was seeing SOMETHING. It shouldn’t have surprised her that this was coming. For weeks now, she’d been having the RECURRING dream of her last day on Zen-Whoberi. Huddled in a closet, her mother’s hand over her mouth to keep her QUIET, though it made no difference. They were found regardless. Gamora shakes the memory away and raises her eyes to his, holding onto the bulkhead for support.
“Peter, we’re out of TIME.” It was ambiguous and tragic, her eyes sad and resigned. “The Galaxy…the GUARDIANS…you and I…we are out of TIME.” She breaths, leaning her head down as if she were ASHAMED.
peter’s stomach twists. he doesn’t like ‘have to’s. there’s always a choice. or, that’s what he was once led to believe as a small child, anyway. the facts are simply that oftentimes his ability to choose has been taken away. not allowed to choose EARTH. not allowed to choose safety. not allowed to choose family. he grew up with nothing but rage. this isn’t a choice he’s willing to give up. if he has to get the stones and end the world himself then so be it, but he could never make gamora do this. he doesn’t even know how to ask her to. taking the life of your father is hard. he knows from experience.
“i know you THINK that’s true.” it is true. he can’t rewind the clock. there is no colossal pause button for the universe. once again, he’s a man of limited options and he hates it. “but we can figure something out. the galaxy can wait. you’re more important.”
They were in England when it happened. Every screen through every window watched New York come under attack, heads hung in dread and pity. She sat forward on the sofa, legs itching to hop in the TARDIS and fix it. She had no idea how, but the intention was simple: aliens want to cause harm, the Doctor stops them. That was their MO. But he stayed sat in that armchair, albeit uneasily, watching as CCTV footage was pulled up showing a man killed in Scotland—– no, not quite. This had to happen, he explained. In this way. He always thought he’d be involved somehow, but apparently not-
Artie watched from the doorway, his weariness more plain than anyones. “Where’s Iron Man?” he asked. He was always his favourite. “Titan,” came the Doctor’s offhanded response. Penny in the air ———- So this is how it happens.
Crisp flecks of orange dirt climbed the TARDIS exterior on landing. She and the Doctor separated, dividing their search in an effort to save their time. She found HIM first. Not Tony Stark, not anyone she recognized.
She approaches cautiously, attempting to balance out his evident anguish. She held her hands up: no weapons, no means to cause harm. ❛ Clara Oswald. Human. Anti-Thanos, Pro-Universe side. Same with you? ❜ She had to assume so. ❛ I’ve got a ship to take you lot home. ❜
he stares for a long moment, unsure of what to think or say or do. none of this is how the war was supposed to go down and he’s almost too TIRED to keep going. he’s lost everything; that’s too difficult to recover from. loss is all he’s ever known and peter isn’t sure he’s ready to cope with it again. he’d almost rather be one of the DEAD ones. god, what he wouldn’t give to have died years ago. still, he pushes himself to his feet, only barely managing to ignore the fire in his side. definitely a few broken ribs, internal bleeding. that’s not gonna be pretty. being BREAKABLEsucks.
“star-lord. half-human. so far ANTI-THANOS that i would have asked my father for help stopping him if dear old dad wasn’t DEAD as a fucking useless doornail.” a bitter laugh escapes his lips, not only at the reality that he’d accept EGO’S help right about now, but because she thinks she can take him home. she doesn’t realize that’s impossible.
“gonna be kinda HARD since i don’t have one. nebula over there — the blue robot chick — doesn’t either. but if by home you mean earth, that’s where the fight is, so that’s where we all gotta be. i’m not DONE with thanos just yet.”
And almost IMMEDIATE sigh followed by a signature roll of brown eyes occurred, as Tony heard the other man’s words. That seemed to happened a lot with his new INTERGALACTIC, friend, if you could even call him that. At this point, Tony needed to. It was only him, Peter, Strange, and the bunch of assholes they’d met only a short time ago. “You’re looking at them, or at least the only ones that are available right now” he said, motioning towards the two people behind him. “There’s a reason we’re called EARTH’S Mightiest Heroes. Space is kind of new terrain for us. Want to tell me where the rest of the, what you call them? ‘Protector’s of The Galaxy’ are? You should really work on that name, by the way. It’s kind of a mouth-full.”
peter stifles a groan. “guardians of the galaxy.” the correction has almost become second nature. what’s so HARD to remember about the word guardians? he’ll never understand — the same as how he’ll never understand why nobody gets STAR-LORD right. “and they’re with your buddy thor. he talked some big game about this place called NIDAVELLIR or some shit like that and rocket got all moon-eyed about some kind of treasure. i don’t really know. i wasn’t paying attention. thor’s kind of a dick. have you ever noticed that?” not the point. definitely not the point.
Her SHOCK is broken as soon as he speaks, though tears still spill from her eyes. “Peter…” She breathed, a hand drifting up to lay along his cheek. And for a moment, she flutters her eyes shut. This was a NIGHTMARE. They were back on the Milano, comfortable and safe. Thanos was a DISTANT thread. Things were okay.
Of COURSE that wasn’t the case.
Gamora flickers her gaze up, staring at him with heartbreak splashed along her amber eyes. “I am…DEAD. But if you’re here…so are YOU.” A chill passes through her spine as she remembers. SOARING through the air and then falling…FALLING. Her heart had leapt into her throat, nearly choking her until she felt the ground. It was a quick pain, almost a flash and then nothing. She vaguely remembers seeing her body on the jagged rocks below, splayed and broken. It’s a SILENT prayer that he never has to see that sight.
There are so many QUESTIONS. Did he suffer? Was he in PAIN? Did he die honorably? Where were the OTHERS? What was Thanos doing now? Was he moving against Terra? Was NEBULA okay?
She lets him back away, though she keeps her hands firmly wrapped around his arms. “We’re technically on Vormir, Peter. But…it’s not.” She shakes her head, lips barely parted to accept AIR–though that seemed foolish considering her mortality.
“Peter…W–What happened? Wh–Where are the others? Are they SAFE?” She whispers, fingers clutching along the sleeves of his coat. It feels GROUNDING to hold him again, to see him. Considering her final thoughts were of the Guardians; memories of BETTER times. Teaching Mantis STEALTH. Tucking Groot in for BED. Laughing at Drax and his inability to be INVISIBLE. Scolding Rocket. ‘I love you more thanANYTHINGelse’, and ‘ILOVE you too’.
Her head shakes a little, denying that he FAILED anything. “N–No, you…you didn’t FAIL.” She hushed, glancing down at their feet submerged in the water. “H–He is just too STRONG.”
oh. oh. he’s DEAD. that would explain the whole disappearing thing. showing up here. seeing her. taking it all in, peter sits on the ground, knees pulled up and elbows resting on top of them, hands loosely dangling. he can’t look at her; can’t accept that they’re both dead. that they can’t stop thanos. they’d come so close.
this is all his fault.
“i don’t know.” it’s the only truthful answer he can give her. “thanos got all the stones. i didn’t DIE, i —— vanished. mantis and drax too. far as i know, nebula’s still on titan with iron man and spider man and… doctor strange? he’s a wizard.” but rocket and groot? they were still with thor. he can’t even be sure they made it off nidavellir. can’t be sure anyone is still alive. the galaxy belongs to THANOS now and all peter can do is hope that there’s someone left on earth with the will & ability to stand up to him. to succeed where peter himself had not.
looking up at her, peter maintains his frown, wearing his GUILT on his sleeve. he should have tried harder, been better. been smarter. a lifetime of challenging opponents who were bigger than him was never supposed to lead him here. maybe the team was right — maybe he’s lost his touch. maybe he’s grown too soft, finally having a family.
maybe family isn’t really a STRENGTH but a weakness. after all, he should have been able to kill gamora like she’d asked. maybe if he’d tried sooner, thanos wouldn’t have rescued her and the soul stone would have been left untouched.
“he got the time stone because of me. my plan was WORKING. we were winning, gamora.” the gauntlet left his hand, if only for a moment before thanos managed to pull it back on. because peter deviated from the plan. because he couldn’t think, couldn’t BREATHE. all he felt was rage. it felt like the moment he learned the truth about his mother’s death; instincts all screamed for him to KILL. to fight. show no mercy. those instincts lost them the war.
“we could have stopped him and i ruined that. and now… i’m here. and i can’t…” look at her without feeling GUILTY. he deserves this death; she doesn’t.
“yeah? well this isn’t the first time.” no, peter knows the earth has been SAVED from mass destruction dozens of times. they’ve become a target in recent years, thanks to the avengers proving that earth isn’t WEAK. “and i’m gonna make sure that it isn’t gonna be the last time, either. you can COUNT on that!” / @witchyd
You’ve seen your world in ashes, been tied down and hopeless, you’ve been there and you’ve seen it all. And still, you persisted. Doesn’t that say something about you?
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i guess we're stuck together, partners.
hello one & all and welcome to my hell! you can call me REX! i’m a 20 year old trans man and if you stick around, you’ll get to watch me go weeks without doing a goddamn thing here! wanna see another magic trick? it’s called crying about headcanons 24/7. if these things don’t scare you, be warned that i have severe anxiety and clinical depression and i can go days or weeks or months without checking in! still interested? please read the following before you agree to interactions!
i do tend to keep several blogs at a time, though one will be my main blog and the rest will just kind of exist. luckily for you, this is my main blog! that means activity is likely to be higher than expected. it also means that this is the blog i'm logged into on mobile, so i'm fairly easily accessible so long as i'm not at work. speaking of work: i'm a FULL TIME kitchen manager. this takes a lot of time and effort. i'm often exhausted when i'm not working and this definitey has an impact on my ability to sit down & write. i apologize in advance.
peter quill.
in light of my rewatching the movies, i have adapted a list of canon divergences. for starters, i do not acknowledge romantic starmora. i'm all here for them being best friends and super close and loving each other platonically, but i personally am not the biggest fan of the ship. i'm willing to write it if we've discussed it, but it is not my default.
i would also like to address yondu. while i occasionally will refer to yondu as one of peter's dads, it's only ever in the broadest sense. peter does not truly see yondu as his father, but does still see him as a guardian of sorts. towards the last days they spent together, peter started to realize that yondu wasn't all bad, but he also definitely wasn't father material.
the last major divergence from canon i'd like to comment on is that, as far as this blog is concerned, PETER STILL HAS HIS POWERS. you can find my explanation on how that is in this post.
following/unfollowing.
i tend to be picky about who i follow. this isn't anything personal, but i have limited time available to me and i need to keep my dash clean & safe & manageable. i doONLY WRITE WITH MUTUALS, so if i'm following you then i definitely do want to write with you.
i rarely unfollow anyone. for the most part, if i do, it's me unfollowing people who aren't mutuals with me. if we are mutuals and i unfollow, it's almost always because we've never written anything and i'm scared to approach you or i've realized our portrayals would no longer mesh.
i amduplicate-friendly, meaning that i don't mind other peter quill blogs following me or even interacting with them! however, i tend not to follow duplicates first because i don't want to make anyone uncomfortable.
i won't follow the blog of a character if i'm already fully exclusive with a version of that character. however, i will still follow a multi-muse containing that character.
if you're exclusive with another peter quill, I WOULD PREFER YOU NOT FOLLOW ME. it makes me extremely uncomfortable when i check out the blog of someone who has followed me & i see they're already exclusive with the character i write.
interactions.
as stated above, i am mutuals-only. even in doing this, the number of threads i end up with often overwhelms me. i need to manage my time as best as possible and that's simply easiest when i limit the field a little bit. i do tend to reply to threads quicker when writing with muns who i've gotten to know ooc / talk to frequently. talking about ideas or headcanons is definitely a good way to keep the juices flowing & inspire me to write.
i will be using 60x60px icons & small text. i tend not to bother with capitalization because this is just for fun and it's what i like. however, i will write with people who have different styles than i do, so don't worry!
plots.
honestly, plotting is my lifeblood. it's a lot easier for me to sit down and write when we've either plotted the thread or a relationship or anything like that. it helps for me to know where things are meant to go, even if we only have the vaguest of outlines. if we're mutuals and you're interested in plotting, you automatically have permission to come talk to me! even if you don't have any specific ideas, i'd love to figure something out. i'm totally comfortable with anything canon or even most au's.
memes.
you can send memes in at any time. if you find a year old meme that you want to send in, just go ahead and do it! you’re welcome to send in as many as you want. i do ask that for symbol memes, you send in both the symbol and what the symbol is for, but if you can’t, that’s totally fine. some memes may go unanswered if i struggle to write up a reply, but this rarely happens! most asks get answered eventually. i’m also happy to receive non-meme ic asks if that’s your jam! that said, if you’d like to continue any asks as a thread, please move it to a new post! i will not acknowledge replies tacked onto an ask-style post. i, personally, dislike how they look & i find they become confusing after a few posts as well as taking up too much space on the dash.
triggers.
personally, topics that trigger me are often tagged as it is. ( rape & child abuse ) however, i ask that you tag a/b/o dynamics & spiders as well! these are also topics that makes me uncomfortable and i, for one, would just prefer not to see it. i do my best to tag triggers! i usually catch them, though on occasion it is retroactively. i also keep a list of topics listed in people’s rules that they’d like tagged, although sometimes i slip up. if you ever need something tagged that isn’t, please let me know so i can correct it & remember for next time!
nsfw.
gore and related themes will definitely be present on this blog, as violence accompanies pretty much everything peter does. if fighting and blood aren’t your thing, this is probably the wrong blog for you. as far as smut goes, it isn’t something i have been known to write. i’m not necessarily unwilling, but we’d need to be extremely close ooc & have talked about it for me to agree to writing it.
shipping.
i, personally, see peter as bisexual. i’m willing to ship with pretty much any adult muse, hero, villain, or otherwise. i would prefer discussing ships before writing them, however if you want to send a shippy meme or something of that sort without having talked about it first, you’re more than welcome to! i’ll do what i can with it.
other.
i’m absolutely willing to have both mains & exclusives with muses from all fandoms. i don’t mean this to upset anyone and i value each and every portrayal of a character, but setting boundaries helps lower my anxiety and keep it manageable. the list of mains & exclusives can be found here.
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one of the idiots who lives in the galaxy.
CAN’T COUNT THE LIST OF THINGS I KNOW ARE WRONG WITH ME. a ravager, peter begins his journey to leaving the crew. his identity as the legendary outlaw star-lord is already established. after his departure from yondu’s men, peter finds his own crew and saves the galaxy.
SO SING IT LOUD UNTIL THEY PUT ME SIX FEET UNDERGROUND. after his epic dance battle that saved the entire galaxy, peter was found by his father. though initially excited, the event proved to be less than great and he was forced to kill the only parent he had left in order to once again save everyone.
on december 4th, 1980, meredith quill gave birth to her son peter. although peter was always a quiet kid, he inherited a great strength from his mother and always stood up for what he believed in. this often resulted in him getting into fights in school, coming home with black eyes and bruises. music was the only thing that easily calmed peter and he often carried around a walkman, which he used to block out the world that overwhelmed him.
as a child, he'd never been able to cope with his mother's cancer and was far too young to warrant his being touched by death. that didn't stop the universe from tearing his mother from him, at age 7, as she swore that one day peter's father would come to take care of him. it was with great despair that peter took off running as far from he could get from the clinic until he was abducted by yondu and his crew.
at age 10, peter was given the milano, which he quickly learned to fly. he also helped the ravagers out on jobs. being small and maneuverable often came in handy and he did anything yondu asked out of fear of being eaten. this continued even into adulthood. peter was 33 before he decided to try and leave to be on his own. that attempt is what brought him together with the group that would become his family: rocket raccoon, groot, drax the destroyer, and gamora.
though originally they were all fighting against each other, circumstances and shared desires turned them into a team. living out of the milano, the crew decided to stick together. two months after their meeting, the guardians met peter's dad, ego. despite peter's initial uncertainty regarding his father, gamora talked him into getting to know the man and his opinion quickly changed; for a brief time, peter genuinely thought he could grow to love the man who helped give him life.
unfortunately, ego revealed to peter that he was responsible for meredith's death and peter lashed out in anger, initiating a firefight with ego before he was rescued by the other guardians. following this, he flew them towards ego's core, where groot was meant to place a bomb to kill ego and save the galaxy. peter took ego head on and physically restrained ego as the bomb went off, bringing the planet, and ego himself, to an explosive end.
peter was then rescued once more, this time by yondu, who sacrificed himself to get peter home. after yondu's funeral, peter didn't know what to do with himself. in an attempt to find himself again, he returned to earth at the turn of the year.
january of 2015 was the first time he'd stepped foot on his home planet since his mother's death. he stayed for a couple months before returning to the guardians, though they made stops back to earth every once in a while. during these pit stops, peter often visits his mother's grave to leave flowers and keep her up to date on his life. the first such trip, he stayed in place for hours just talking to her about all the things he's seen.
infinity war spoilers.
as the guardians left earth from picking peter up, they encountered a distress signal, which they went to investigate. they discovered the asgardian refugee ship, half-destroyed by thanos, and thor himself was floating around space. upon awaking, thor took the second ship to nidavellir along with rocket & groot. the remaining guardians went to knowhere in search of thanos. on knowhere, thanos captured gamora and left with the reality stone.
peter's next course of action was to go to thanos' home planet of TITAN, where he encountered earth heroes iron man, doctor strange, and spider-man. the two teams decided to work together to stop thanos, although their plan failed and thanos was able to retrieve all six infinity stones. with the snap of his fingers, thanos wiped out half the population.
peter was among these until he was torn from peace back into reality, cells regenerating on account of his celestial dna, and just like that peter was left standing on titan with only tony stark and nebula.
